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so.....i've been riding a 17 year old grey 16hh thoroughbred named simon. he's a spitfire and FRESH as HELL due to inconsistent riding on his owner's part for the last several years....he's sound and doesn't even look like he's as old as he is. his owner actually offered him to me....for free....but unfortunately i'm just not in the position to have a horse right now. i can't afford monthly board and payments on a new car when i get one....and sadly the car takes priority.

but....i don't know how much longer i'll be riding him. he's a bit much for me....he's thrown me bucks and even a small rear the other day when she and her other horse, sean, cantered up behind us. i can handle him, but i don't think i'm confident enough to do it effectively and if anything, he's just making me more nervous. i don't want to end up afraid of riding and i have one of those gut feelings that it's an accident waiting to happen. as of right now, there's only pasture to work in.....she's building an arena but it won't be finished until july or august. there's no round pen....no real safe area to work with him. and she insists on riding with me. i think she really wants a riding buddy....but see, part of why he's a handful is he feeds off of sean who is a 12 year old OTTB....she says he's green, but she's had him since he came off the track at 7 years old. so far, based on how i've seen her interact with them and what she lets them get away with, i'm willing to bet he's just a spoiled shit who isn't green, but rather thinks he's the boss of her. he's bitten her twice that i've been out there...the first time she's like, "he's never done that before!!" but he did it again a couple days later....so i don't know. i'm going to ride simon a few more times and see how things progress. if it continues like it's been thus far, i'm going to just say thank you but i can't ride him. it's not good for me nor is it good for him.

i want to get some tattoos......i'm getting kiera's paw print on my wrist. and i want swallows on my chest. need to figure out what i want between them though. and i want the line, "i finally know now what i should've known then," (from "ruthless" by soco) somewhere...not sure where. i want a piece that goes down my back and ribs....either stars or willow leaves....yeah.... just gotta figure out the money thing. i have a ton in savings right now, but that's car money. hopefully i get what i was told the amount of damage was to my car....$1400....if so, i'll be using a good chunk of that for ink. plus then $600 from the gov't in may.....yeah.

i should donate eggs. hahahaha. seriously though, i've thought about it. you can get a lot of money for it......i just don't know if i want little spawn of me running around all over the country.... o_O